Alhamdulillah,cant wait for summer next year =D..I want to go somewhere but then lets keep it a secret shall we?
This winter,I got stonewalled not knowing which way to go but still I'll make sure I go to somewhere..
I dont want to go back to Malaysia in summer as I plan to go there~biiznillah insya-Allah
Still I havent decided yet,whether to stick to those whom were with me right at the beginning or the one whose I heard of about them from a friend of mine in Adelaide..
Havent discussed with my mas'ulah in Malaysia though I really miss her a lot like ages had I ever seeing her and talking with her or even texting her..She was and is a very goood murobbi..kak affizah,sayang sgt dekat akak..sangatt sangattt..Sorry for this retarded mind of mine in disregarding my earlier seeemed to be:decision of being in the same roof of yours..I am very sorry,I got confused and take a stand against you and all the words that once I was agreed with..I want the best out of me,for both sides..I want to make it fair and square,no hurting others et al..
And futur won over me..Still I havent made up my numbing-mind concerning this issue..Akak,ciri-ciri nyer pe ye?Y did I went against you whom dearest to me??How could I?My shifted paradigm got its stand on its own,instantaneously since it knew where to initiate the facts-analyzed process..Are they facts or some kind of rumours having spread out by an irresponsible individual intentionally to create a mess,disrupting our not so covalently bond or is it ionic??
Idealism isnt my intention as there's a slight chance of getting astray from the true path..If isnt based on the syariah.And my mu'amalat was and am getting worn out,tak tsiqoh-stricken which flare up my iman saying lots of things to not being done in the past though within a split second in time..
Backbone??Dun quite understand bout that..Referring back to Sirah was a good way to look but still got blank..The people inside subhanallah but considering the approach made me having a second thought..Or was it that I think too much of it??
Just wait and see I guess,permudahkan ye ya Allah..amiin
These few days I am depending on these items which actually only a part of the actual items in hand~Continuity in coughing too significant resulting in a dependency to an inhaler due to the asthma presumed by GP~
~my medicines since living here~
I got this during Freshers camp in notts and really like it so cute right??Get way too excited to recite it every day~
In the name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful..
Because I do know..
I cried as my heart wanted to burst open..
I shed a lot of tears as I do know..
I feel like my heart is going to explode..
Coz I know..
And He did open all His Door for me..
Enable me to understand..
Why it is compulsory for me..
For us..
To be in His Path..
I cried till my friend heard and IM me..
Whether I heard someone's crying..
About 10 minutes later did I reply to her..
As if I was not the one..
I knew the answer..
But still I'm afraid of being in a wrong path..
Ya Allah I'm afraid of this world..
Full of fools like me..
Cheated by the devils..
I knew it already..
Yet I cried..
As if it won't stop..
Is this the answer to my question?..
I don't want to be left behind..
I want to meet You..
But before that..
I wonder..
If for any guy am I not qualified to be with..
Am I qualified to be with You?..
At least to meet You..
Am I??..
Tears kept rolling down my cheek..
As if it was raining here..
That sentence which blurted from my very own heart..
Kept ringing in my head..
I completely understood why it is compulsory for me..
I need to decide..
I have came across the BRIDGE,havent I?..
And as the saying goes..
Cross the BRIDGE once you've came across it..
Is this the right time??..
What about Father and Mother??..
Do I have to tell them??..
Both of them are the reservoir..
Created by Allah..
Source of blessing from Allah..
I love everyone..
I will not enter His House without others..
Lets go with me dearies..
All of us have that particular potentials..
They are a gift from The Most Gracious..
How could you differentiate us with academical performance??..
Is that a guarantee?
To enter His Jannah..
He had said that..
We are all the same..
What differs us is our taqwa..
Do not judge others dearies..
Allah certainly has unique ways to show His love to us..
Islam itu kan syumul..
That's what I learnt and know..
And I want to stick to it..
If I went wrong..
Please anyone,give me 2,3 slap on my face..
So that I know..
My pride is nothing..
If Islam is not in me........
noralina (22:36): sume org tuh adlh khalifah..tugas dakwah tuh plak wajib sume org bwk wpon msih x ckp ilmu..akhir zmn nnt islam kn kmbali gemilang so kene adda satu jemaah islam y memrintah
noralina (22:36): usrah dn halaqah tuh plak nadi seorang muslim
Ya Allah,moga dalam setiap degupan jantungku ini,diiringi nama-Mu ya Ilahi Rabbi..
Alhamdulillah,arrived here in Sheffield safe and sound =)..Alhamdulillah,I came here with a feeling of performing my duty not as an excellent student getting excited of going abroad as a result of her result.
Nothing to be proud of..as I and my friends knew the truth that lied behind this..
Alhamdulillah,5 years of staying at boarding school as well as approximately 1 year in unikl,I came here tough and strong..
With a lot of responsibility...
With a lot of things in mind..
With a mixed-up feelings..
Of not being able to carry out my RESPONSIBILITY..
But I want to practice WALK THE TALK..
Oo Allah,strengthen my heart in ur path..
As I am nobody..
Nothing in me to boast of..
Please subtle my heart..
"Bukankah telah Kami lapangkan dadamu?"
Lapangkan dadaku ya Rabbi...
Selapang-lapangnya..
Seluas saujana mata memandang..
"Seorang mukmin itu suka apa yang disukainya untuk saudaranya"
Aku ingin sehebat Usamah,Mus'ab,Thoriq..
Aku akan berusaha..
Sehabis baik..
Jauhkan aku dari mereka yang menjauhkan aku dari-Mu..
Kerana lemahnya imanku..
Tak terdaya menepis godaan duniawi..
Jadikanlah aku seperti Yusuf a.s..
Yang betah memilih penjara dari tergadai imannya...
Alhamdulillah done with the deposit payment of Opal 2 which really freaked me out as I was hankering to stay in the city campus yet many got in the way till at one point I really think I had to let it slipped away.Huh,alhamdulillah again.
Hard enough to bear with all the have-to-fill-in-the-form things as the server seemed to have an internal disorder.lol.Ok,back to business.These deposit things really made me thinking of my ‘payment’ in order to enter my ‘house’ ‘there’.Huhu.Yess,that very particular house for us to just sit back and having a good rest for our entire life after all the good deeds we’ve done to get into it.Get me?
Though the payment process was taking less than an hour I suppose (for those who had very high-speed internet connection),it took me a very enormous amount of patience to not smashing my sweetie pavilion into pieces as multiple times had I refreshing the page whose appeared to say-page load error!page load error!Lucky me..
Not to mention I had to ym Yin and Tumi (who happen to be sleepy) to join the forces (though indirectly) of battling the whacko server for the sake of having the deposit payment done!Huhu,and I was like having a total nightmare when Zarul said that if I decline the offer to stay in campus,I won’t stand a chance to do so in eons of time,forever and ever!!And for a nano-second I wasn’t able to think,hanged for a while like an ancient computer being lagged behind by the time revolution.
And I was relieved when these were written on the page -successful payment,deposit paid and the payment method had been set up!Huh,what a relieved..
I wonder whether ‘Illiyyin or Sijjin will be handed over to me.Sigh.The Resurrection Day.I tend to forget the real purpose of my existence and I always act like those days wouldn’t come to pick me to be judged.By whom?
Him..of course.
Indeed,lucky me if I got ‘Illiyyin but it would be a complete disaster,for me if I got Sijjin.Na’uzubillah..
7.Sekali-kali jangan begitu!Sesungguhnya catatan orang yang derhaka benar-benar tersimpan dalam Sijjin.
8.Dan tahukah engkau apakah Sijjin itu?
9.(Yaitu) kitab yang berisi catatan (amal).
18.Sekali-kali tidak!Sesungguhnya catatan orang-orang yang berbakti benar-benar tersimpan dalam ‘Illiyyin.
19.Dan tahukah engkau apakah ‘Illiyyin itu?
20.(Yaitu) kitab yang berisi catatan (amal),
21.Yang disaksikan oleh (malaikat-malaikat) yang didekatkan (kepada Allah).(Al-Muthaffifin)
Insya-Allah,will be working towards getting an ‘Illiyyin.So I can enter my ‘house’ to meet and see the Owner of All House!Insya-Allah!Let’s pay now and play later,shall we?=))
"Diceritakan pada suatu masa dahulu terdapat seorang yang mneghitung dirinya semenjak dia mula baligh.Dia mendapati dosanya sebanyak tiga puluh enam.Dia pun beristighfar kepada Allah S.W.T. untuk setiap dosanya sebanyak seratus ribu kali dan dia bersolat sunat untuk setiap satu dosa sebanyak seribu rakaat.Namun,kemudiannya dia berkata:Walaupun begitu aku masih tidak tenteram daripada cengkaman Tuhan yang akan menghukum aku dengannya dan aku berada dalam keadaan cemas,adakah taubatku diterima Allah atau tidak..."-Solusi Isu No 7 m/s 100.
Tapi aku??Dua rakaat satu salam pun terkial2,berjuang habis-habisan..dahlah buih2 apatah lagi dok nak practice sampai 40 kali so that jadi istiqamah bak kata Imam Syafie??=((
"Sesungguhnya telah ada pada diri Rasulullah S.A.W. itu suri teladan bagi kamu" (Al-Ahzab:21)
Kan Baginda selalu amalkan lebih dari sekali dalam satu hari walaupun dah dijanjikan syurga plus maksum??
Huhu,aku nak contohi dia,habibullah...Uswatun hasanah..Nanti boleh dapat suka dia pastuh boleh suka Dia plak..
Pening bila mana mak dan abah were against me when discussed about 'kawan' issue.And I was like it's a definite no-no as mencegah tuh lebih baik dari merawat.And they went dekat2 takleh,kalau jauh2 xpe.And aku tetap aku,takleh terima,huhu
And when I issued these to Tumi she said my parents were afraid of me becoming u see no guys yang tak nak kat aku.So?Even though I had heard a lot still,sangat takut untuk masuk ke jalan itu.Takut hilang berkatnya nanti.
Aku yang dari dulu sangat takut dan sangat tak agree ngan benda2 ni.Aku yang menentang arus,aku yang dulu sangat2 sukar didekati aku yang dikata lurus bendul oleh mak cikku sendiri.Aku yang alhamdulillah akhirnya tawar hati,dan akhirnya neutral kerana aku sedar once aku berpijak di jalan itu,aku kene memikirkan penghujungnya which I was and am still afraid of.
Sangat2 berkaitan dengan akhiratku,yang mana aku mesti menilai bukan dari rupa tapi whether fikrahnya sama ke dengan aku?Aku yang asing dalam keluarga sendiri,aku yang sering disuruh begitu begini which I hate it because this is the real me.And I want to keep my feet on the ground,no tabarruj and all of the sort.
Aku yang terdidik begini sejak di SAKTI lagi,mana boleh main ikut acuan logik akal yang tak semuanya fit dengan syariat?
And really grateful sebab akhirnya aku sedar it's not good to judge others because at the end of the day,we do not know penghujungya bagi setiap orang.Thanks Munzir for this advice..
Aku sendiri risau bila mana dikurniakan siblings yang subhanallah cantik,tapi sering dijerat permasalahan remaja.Dan bila aku mengutarakan my opinion,terkejutlah my parents.Huhu.Mungkin caraku sangat tegas kot plus kurang berhikmah.By the way,aku sendiri prejudice dengan guys yang approach siblingsku ini takut hanya terpaut pada kecantikan yang x kekal!
Dan aku pun berfikir,kalau guy tuh approach my parents first would it be ok if agama die x ok?Aku x kisah kalau fiqahnya kurang tapi kalau faqihnya goyah,aku boleh tawar hati jadinya.
Sedangkan aku yang sekarang ni kalau nak ke mana2 wajib meminta izin abah dulu.macam mana kalau dapat guy yang x paham aku yang begini begitu,bagi ke nanti bila aku keluar gi mana2?I doubted that.
Aku yang takut kalau2 pakcik and makcikku carikan somebody the way they did to my sister.Huh,kalaupun tahu dia punya background,agama dia??I would question that.
Ya Allah,aku tak nak kalah dalam persaingan ni.Aku nak bersaing dengan mereka,jadi maaflah biarlah pintu tu tertutup,dan hanya terbuka bila tiba masanya!Aku masih memimpin diri sendiri,tak mahu memikirkan yang lain.
Apapun yang terjadi,aku terima,insya-Allah akan aku didik hati untuk lebih redha.insya-Allah.
Dipermudahkan oleh-Nya akan perjalanan kali ini.Yang mana seperti roda gayanya,sekejap di atas sekejap di bawah.Nevertheless,Dia Maha Tahu what's best for hamba-Nya.
Bila dikenang kembali,kesilapan lalu mengajar diri untuk lebih kuat berusaha,lebih menghargai,lebih subtle towards others,lebih open-heart,lebih mementingkan 'Dia suka x dengan apa yang aku buat' attitude rather than feeling sick of 'what other people think of' attitude..
Betapa hidup lebih terarah ketika berseorangan,kita lebih menghargai Islam bila dicampakkan ke tempat yang gharib bagi kita.Kita tercari2 akan cahaya itu,yang menjelmakan ruh Islam dalam hati kita,yang strengthen kita punye bond dengan Rabb kita.
Allahu Rabbi Allahu Rabbi
Redakah aku dengan Islam?Paling penting redakah aku dengan Allah sebagai Tuhanku??
Apa pembuktiannya yang aku reda?
Dah hebat ke solat lima waktuku?Ibu bapa,baikkah aku dengan mereka??Ade cakap 'ah' x dengan diaorang??Dengan siblings,aku respect x dengan yang tua?
Jangan tanya qiam,usrah dsb..
Hebatkah???
Mungkin tampak hebat but still Allah Maha Mengetahui..depan belakang dalam luar.Hati di dalam dada moga tidak buta.Mata rabun tak apa,huhu
Dan aku yang dah tua ni,dah nak masuk 21 masih struggling untuk bersaing dengan mereka yang seangkatan denganku,dengan yang masih muda tetapi masya-Allah hebat pengamalan agamanya,yang selalu buat aku sedih dengan diri sendiri.Siapa aku di sisi-Nya??Takut dilaknat penghuni langit.
Aku yang sekarang masih lagi belum cukup usahanya,yang walaupun dah tua tapi masih muda dalam dakwah,yang masih ragu2,yang masih sedikit feqahnya.Masih banyak yang x tahu.
Aku yang masih dijajah lawwamah,aku yang hatinya masih berbolak balik,aku yang nafsunya masih beraja,masih cintakan dunia yang x kekal ni,masih keras,masih hitam,masih dan masih..
Takpelah,yang penting ada usaha ke arah-Nya.Bukankah itu yang dipandang??
It's not about the destination,it's about the journey,how you get there..
Bila dah di jalan itu,insya-Allah..
Dan memang yang berkaitan dengan dakwah itu penting,still reda ibubapa itu much penting as reda Dia bergantung pada reda both of them..
Aku yang cakap berdegar2,hebatkah aku seperti apa yang aku perkatakan kepada orang??
Moga aku bercakap seiring perilaku,amiin.
Moga aku boleh mencontohi Khaulah al-Azwar,Aisyah ra,Khadijah ra..Moga,insya-Allah
Akukah yang dalam 72 golongan itu??Sedangkan Caliph Umar al-Faruq pun rase macam tu. Aku yang macam buih2 ni macam mana????
Dah abis pun 1st year,kat rumah banyak masa terluang.Baca kat paper rejim Zionis bom Masjid At-Taqwa kat Palestin..
Israel still determine untuk menjadikan Iran sbg sasaran utama peluru berpandunya due to ketegasan Iran untuk meneruskan nuclear development kat negaranya sendiri..
Amerika plak menegaskan akan memastikan Israel menjadi negara yang mempunyai senjata nuklear terkuat di dunia..
Though Amerika menggesa Israel untuk menghentikan pembinaan penempatan di Palestin,Israel take no actions in quitting the construction..
Sakit hati dengan Zionis..
Tapi,agak2 nak tak kalau kena wajibkan berjihad dekat Palestin?
Aku??
Aku tidak sehebat orang lain,yang bila ditanya tidak teragak2 menjawab ,ya!
Ya Allah,selemah ini imanku..Macam mana nak fastabiqul khairat dengan akhawat yang lain?=(
Malu dengan Al-Khansa’ yang menangis bile puteranya yang keempat syahid,menangis bukan kerana sedih tetapi kerana tiada lagi anak lelaki yang boleh dihantar pergi berjihad fisabilillah!Bayangkan keempat2 puteranya dihantar pergi berjihad dan kesemuanya syahid!Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar!
Peristiwa ini berlaku pada zaman Al-Faruq,pada waktu tu Umar Al Khattab menyeru Muslimin berjihad melawan Parsi pada 14 Hijrah.Bergetar jiwa,betapa kerdilnya diri kalau nak banding dengan putera2 Al-Khansa’=((
Allah dah kata dalam firman dia,al-Isra’ ayat 4:
“Dan Kami menyatakan kepada Bani Israel dalam Kitab itu:Sesungguhya kamu akan melakukan kerosakan di bumi (Palestin) 2 kali dan sesungguhnya kamu akan berlaku sombong angkuh dengan melampau”
Kerosakan pertama:di bumi Yathrib (Madinah al-Munawarah) yang mana kalau kita ingat balik,Yahudi nilah yang menjadi batu api di sebalik pertelingkahan antara ‘Aus danKhazraj.Mereka suka menindas dan melaga2kn bangsa2 lain.And they proud to kill Nabi dan Rasul to the extent they disapprove our Prophet,Muhammad SAW as the last prophet.
And then Allah kata lagi dalam al-Isra’ ayat 5:
“Maka apabila sampai masa janji (membalas kederhakaan kamu) kali yang pertama dari dua (kederhakaan) itu,Kami datangkan kepada kamu hamba2 Kami yang kuat gagah dan amat ganas serangannya lalu mereka menjelajah ke segala ceruk rantau (membunuh dan membinasakn kamu) dan (sebenarnya peristiwa itu) adalah satu janji yang tetap berlaku”
Allah SWT Maha Adil.Diutuskannya Rasulullah SAW nabi akhir zaman bukan drpd kaum Yahudi tapi kaum Arab.Rasulullah SAW dah banyak kali bagi peluang pada mereka tapi mereka degil,sombong,bongkak.Bahkan,macam2 cara dibuat nak bunuh nabi.And they end up kena usir dari Khaybar masa bulan Muharam tahun ke-7 Hijrah.From that moment on,mana saja diaorang pergi,orang benci pada mereka sebab diaorang ni tak henti2 buat kerosakan.
Bukan tuje,Yahudi nih tak pandai berterima kasih.Diaorang dengan hinanya pernah diberi ihsan bersyarat masa pemerintahan Islam dulu.And masa kuasa Kristian nak bunuh mereka beramai2 dekat Andalusia tahun 1942,Kerajaan Islam Turki Uthmaniyyah lah yang beri perlindungan under kuasa Islam.
Balasannya??
Diaorang hancurkan Islam dari dalam sampai runtuh khalifah Islam yang menguasai 2/3 dunia pada 1924!
Sampai sekarang Palestin bermandi darah.Menganggap bangsa lain lebih hina drpd binatang.Itulah pegangan Zionis.
Ape yang kita buat untuk menentang Zionis??
Allah berfirman:
“Sekali2 Yahudi dan Nasrani itu tidak akan reda selagi kamu tidak mengikuti agama (cara hidup) mereka” [al-Baqarah:120]
Allah dah tunjuk dah cara nak menentang Yahudi nih ialah mengamalkan sepenuhnya cara hidup bersyariat.Sebabnya jelas,diaorang nih benci mereka yang tak mengikut cara hidup diaorang.Thats why lah.
Plus,ulama kontemporari had said that kerosakan kedua yang dilakukan Yahudi ialah kerosakan pada zaman ini!
Firman Allah SWT:
“Kemudian,Kami kembalikan kepada kamu (Yahudi) kekuasaan untuk mengalahkan mereka,dan Kami perpanjangkan kepada kamu dengan benyaknya harta kekayaan dan anak pinak,serta Kami jadikan kamu kaum yang lebih ramai pasukannya” [al-Isra’:6]
Terbukti,memang Yahudi sangat kaya sekarang nih.Dengan suntikan dana sebanyak 10-15 juta US setiap hari,yang sebahagiannya hasil pelaburan berbilion2 oleh negara2 Arab di Amerika yang kononnya Polis Dunia (as they say),menguatkan lagi firman-Nya bahawa semua itu digunakan untuk menghancurkan Islam.
Apa yang kita nak jawab bila ditanya di Mahsyar nanti,if satu apa pun kta tak contribute to Palestinians out there yang suffer from Isrelis?Na’uzubillah,kita tak nak jadi saudara seakidah yang hanya berpeluk tubuh,contribute nothing.
Kan saudara seakidah tuh macam satu tubuh.Bahagian tubuh yang lain pun akan merasa sakitnya bila one particular part of the body sakit.Marilah kita sama2 mendoakaan kesejahteraan saudara2 kta yang berada di Palestin,juga para syuhada’ yang syahid mempertahankan Baitulmaqdis dan tanahair mereka.Al-Fatihah buat mereka.
Sumber:Pemilik Cintaku Setelah Allah dan Rasul,Fatimah Syarha
"Aku mencintaimu kerana agama yang ada pada dirimu.Jika hilang agamamu,hilanglah cintaku padamu"
Namun begitu,Rasulullah SAW sendiri berpesan:
"Cintailah orang yang kamu cintai sewajarnya kerana boleh jadi suatu hari kelak akan menjadi musuhmu.Dan bencilah musuhmu dengan sewajarnya kerana boleh jadi suatu hari kelak akan menjadi orang yang kamu cintai" (Riwayat al-Bukhari,Abu Daud,al-Tirmizi dan Ibnu Majah drpd. Abu Hurairah)
Maksud sabda Baginda lagi:
"Masih belum sempurna iman seseorang daripada kalian sebelum diriku lebih dicintai olehnya daripada hartanya,anaknya dan seluruh manusia" (Riwayat al-Nasa'i)
Lantaran masih belajar dan belum bersedia,
"Sesiapa yang jatuh cinta,kemudian menyembunyikannya hingga kematian datang menjemputnya,maka dia adalah seorang yang syahid" (Riwayat Hakim,Ibn Asakir,al-Dailami dll.)
Dalam riwayat lain pula,
"Sesiapa yang jatuh cinta,lalu dia memelihara kesucian dirinya dan bersabar hingga meninggal dunia,maka dia adalah seorang yang syahid"
Berpegang kepada saranan agama (applicable to both gender),
Dari Abu Hurairah ra bahawa Nabi SAW bersabda:
"Dinikahi wanita itu kerana empat perkara:Kerana hartanya dan kerana keturunannya dan kerana kecantikannya dan kerana agamanya maka pilihlah yang mempunyai (mengamalkan) agama,ia menyenangkan kamu" (Riwayat Muslim)
Berdepan cabaran (diuji dengan rijal mahupun akhawat),beristikharahlah serta musyawwarah dan yakin dengan petunjuk Ilahi..
Antara kaum Adam dan Hawa,
Maksudnya:"Dan tidaklah patut bagi seorang lelaki Mukmin dan perempuan Mukmin apabila Allah dan Rasul-Nya telah menetapkan satu ketetapan,akan ada bagi mereka pilihan (yang lain) tentang urusan mereka,dan sesiapa menderhakai Allah dan Rasul-Nya,maka sungguhlah dia telah sesat,sesat yang nyata" (Surah al-Ahzab 33:36)
First thing first,jika tidak bersedia,tak usahlah bercinta=).Kalau suka,jumpalah ibubapa.Huhu,mesti x berani kan?=p
"Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina.Sesungguhnya zina itu adalah suatu perbuatan yang keji dan satu jalan yang buruk" (Surah al-Isra' 17:32)
Menuntut ilmu kan jihad,samalah macam melawan hawa nafsu.Jom memburu syahid!!
Al-Ahzab [72] (Ingatlah) sesungguhnya tabiat kebanyakan manusia adalah suka melakukan kezaliman dan suka pula membuat perkara-perkara yang tidak patut dikerjakan..
Lots of responsibilities yet here I am still wondering am I doing them or haven't I did this and that?
And I jump to this conclusion:none,not enough,lots of things to be calibrated back,have to redeem myself etc..
How come did these words blurted out from my very own mouth saying,I dah struggle giler2 nih but then none solid evidence had I found.
Even though my friends said,I was the one who seemed to 'study' yet I think those words are overrated.
Jom,menuju ke PUNCAK,GEMILANG TERBILANG,IMAN di dada MENGIRING langkah!!yeayy,aim and strive!!
I was listening to 'Aku Hanya Seorang 'Umar' by Hijjaz when jotting all this words.And alhamdulillah,praise be upon Him as we have complete our battle of the brains with our most freak-out subject,akh CPP which stands for Chemical Process Principles.
I was laughing all the way when Anis and Illiyyin were talking about how a CPP's syllabus which needed to be comprehend for 1 semester was being forced into our very brains in a fortnight and the worst-case scenario was the D-Day was tomorrow.lol.rofl
And I was like 'what on Earth did they talk about' as I've found none solid evidence which can be linked to rasionalism of human mind,nearly at 2 am.To make things worst for me was I was having a difficulty in letting myself to sleep,even though my brain seemed to said 'I was dead beat,how dare you,ignoring my rights to have rest after you made me flat out revising all the subjects yet you still building castles in the air,grasping nothing???'lol
Due to sleep-deprived,I forced myself to walk my feet into the shower,bathing myself so that the cold water will rejuvenate my body.And if my father knew about this,of course I will be ended up receiving a lot of 'compliments' from my siblings the moment I got a very educational 'lectures' yet consuming the whole mind of mind to digest the gist.What a slow-paced I am.
Afifah,thx for letting me browsing through your distillation notes as they were of great help when I was answering the C section of CPP exam paper.
And alhamdulillah,thx to my mother whom sacrifing her time,performing prayer for me so that I will end up motivating,when facing all this depressed-things-during-exam.huhu.She was fasting these few days,as her little girl was struggling to cater to the needs of the exam.huhu
To my beloved roommates,I do love all of you very much.Uhibbukum hubban jamma lillahi taala=).Insya-Allah,we are going to make it this time,so do not think too much about it but rather working to achieve our mission and aims..
To my beloved Fet girls,I do love all of you too,huhu very2 much=)..huhu,korg sgt gilerr spt saya,weh3.Each of you,irrespective of either my roommates or my girls' classmates,are and willl be always special to me in a way that 'you complete me'.The things,little2 things that lack in me,you are the one that fill in that particular emptiness in my life,indah kan ukhuwwah?^^
To my classmates,really grateful and blessed to have all of you by my side as I learned multiple invaluable things from each of u,and they made me realize how Allah created this life full of colours,and you are the colours that brightening my life^^.Love you all sahabat,jgn nakal2 kay.Be matured skit.Moga jdi syabab yang soleh,amiin
To my beloved kecturers,thx for all this while,the ilms,the advices,all the things that you taught me directly or not,really appreciate them sooo much.May Allah bless us all and may us be happy in Hereafter.amiin
"Allahumma bismika ahya wa amuut.Ya Allah,with your name I live and I die.Moga saya jadi......."Mintaklah something from Him^^.Terharu when bace this entry by my murabbi.
Dont forget to recite this prayer once you are on your way to sleep,okayy^^.
Berikan ku sebaris kata Untuk ku susuri jalan gelita Mentera keramat kata pujangga Azimat yang bermakna Di depan simpang bercabang tiga Tak tahu mana satu arahnya Kanan kiri manusia berdusta Mungkir pada yang Esa Mungkin ku bukan watak utama Dalam pentas lakonan dunia Bimbang juga ku turut sama Pastinya aku yang binasa Berikan aku pedoman Arah mana jalan kehidupan Untukku teruskan pengembaraan Tak rebah dan tersalah langkah Tunjukkan aku kawan Simpang mana arah kejayaan Timur, Utara juga Selatan Atau arah matahari terbenam Bersama menyusuri jalan Para rasul nabi junjungan Menuju ke puncak gemilang terbilang Iman di dada mengiring langkah
~Nak bagi hadiah,mana boleh main cincai je.Nak bagi,bagi yang terbaik terus!!!~
Wow,tomorrow is D-Day!!The very first paper for my final exam which in turn will decide whether I will be going to Sheffield or not!Mathematics-which was one of paper that has the capability to freak me out,having a cold feet the moment I stepped my feet into the exam hall.
But now,alhamdulillah it turns the other way around.I like mathematics very much as it is a very interesting subject,isn't it?Plus,a very good lecturer with crystal clear explanation,huhu,deepen my love for Mr. Maths,huhu
Okey-dokey,lets pray that tomorrow will end up in a good way,amiin,insya-Allah=)
Aim:1st class honors for this final as a gift for Him!Amiin..
Even though,I did not even finish revising other subjects but then I won't easily giving in to the current situation of mine.Owh,I need to finish my discussion for Biology's report,I hope I can finish it by tomorrow.
Burning the midnight oil-have to exercise this as lots more to be revised but I'm afraid of waking up so late,did not want to risk my dawn prayer just for the sake of revising,end up no blessing from Him=(
Towards 1st class-A gift for Him and His Messenger,insya-Allah..Amiin
Alhamdulillah,a little bit tired due to a bad lackadaisical attitude implanted within me=p.Still,alhamdulillah a verse from Him is enough for me to charge forward without complaining and sighing=)
"So verily,with the hardship there's relief.Verily,with the hardship there's relief" (As-Syarh:5-6)
Yeayy,stay steadfast and strive for the best for the sake of Allah and Rasulullah SAW.Dearies,wish you all,all the best in your future undertakings and not to forget pray for our success too here in Malaysia=)
"Lo! As for those who believe and do good works,for them is a reward that will never fail" Al-Fussilat:8)
Off to Sheffield I hope insya-Allah,amiin.
Let's just struggle and have faith in Him,Allah SWT=))
Reminiscing the lyrics of 'Satu Tekad'=))
"Menuju ke PUNCAK,GEMILANG TERBILANG,IMAN di dada MENGIRING langkah"
A little bit confused,guilty over something and depressed plus doesnt even want to be a factor to a bigger problems.I hate myself even more when Mr. Steadfast seems to run away from me.Owh,please do come back coz I need you,really need you right now.
Mr. Feqah is always by my side but Mr. Faqih acted like a chipsmore,kejap ade kejap takde.Ya Allah,exam is just around the corner but then here I am having a very terrible war within myself.I feel so scared yet so pathetic.Ya Allah,do have pity on me please=((
Please discarded it so that each of us will be happy,even though it means a lot to me.I think I want to go to Belfast but then kak Farhana reminded me of 'hijrah itu biarlah krn Allah' and I was being slapped invisibly right at my face.Serves me right,huhu
Innamal a'maalu binniat
It is narrated on the authority of Amirul Mu'minin,Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab r.a.,who said:I heard the Messenger of Allah S.A.W.,say :It is
"Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah),so each man will have what he intended.Thus,he whose migration (hijrah) was Allah and His Messenger,his migration is to Allah and His Messenger;but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain,or for a wife he might marry,his migration is to that for which he migrated." [Al-Bukhari & Muslim]
Ok,I understood ya Allah.Saya sangat2 kena bermujahadah ni,hehe.Ya Allah,teguhkan hati ku,jangan kau keraskan,lembutkanlah hatiku,jangan kau biarkan egoku beraja.Ya Allah,tetapkan hati ini pada jalan-Mu ye.Mungkin akan sedih,but then I'm going to be okay insya-Allah=))
I am determined to do something yet I feel like a loser=((.
Alhamdulillah,even though I was kinda exhausted as well as dead beat but then the lectures were worthwhile to be attended..And not to mention,multiple times had I closed my eyes so that my sleepy eyes would have some rest so that I can continue listening and comprehend all the facts murmured by my beloved lecturers.
To be honest,I was so grateful to be given such nice and sweet lecturers,with good-tempered plus brightening-my-day smile all I could wished for them was may Allah bless them for their effort just for the sake of giving their students very predcious knowledge that won't be acquired elsewhere..
Despite of light headache,I was quite happy as He gave me the very beautiful feeling of understanding the knowledge/subjects I've learned.Alhamdulillah,I was on cloud nine,hehe,grabbing in all the valuable facts that I could digest the moment they blurted out the words..
And I was lucky to have great friends with brilliant mind,they were always there when I got stonewalled,the usual tutors to turn to,Isho and the list goes on.Alhamdulillah,praise be upon Him.I was aiming for higher marks for this final and I hope I can cope with all the subjects etc,not to mention assignments plus lab reports,hehe
I love fluid,design,material,math,cpp,thermo,I do really love them very much=)Uhibbukum fillah hubban jamma!Ya Allah,permudahkan ye ya Allah,tsabatkan hati ini pada jalan-Mu..amiin2 ya Rabbal 'alamiin..
I was young,hehe but then I wanted to be like Usamah,Mus'ab and Ali..And of course Al-Fatih and Al-Banna=D..Amiin
Verily, the Muslims (those who submit to Allâh in Islâm) men and women, the believers men and women (who believe in Islâmic Monotheism), the men and the women who are obedient (to Allâh), the men and women who are truthful (in their speech and deeds), the men and the women who are patient (in performing all the duties which Allâh has ordered and in abstaining from all that Allâh has forbidden), the men and the women who are humble (before their Lord Allâh), the men and the women who give Sadaqât (i.e. Zakât, and alms, etc.), the men and the women who observe Saum (fast) (the obligatory fasting during the month of Ramadân, and the optional Nawâfil fasting), the men and the women who guard their chastity (from illegal sexual acts) and the men and the women who remember Allâh much with their hearts and tongues (while sitting, standing, lying, etc. for more than 300 times extra over the remembrance of Allâh during the five compulsory congregational prayers) or praying extra additional Nawâfil prayers of night in the last part of night, etc.) Allâh has prepared for them forgiveness and a great reward (i.e. Paradise).(Al-Ahzab:35)
It is not for a believer, man or woman, when Allâh and His Messenger have decreed a matter that they should have any option in their decision. And whoever disobeys Allâh and His Messenger, he has indeed strayed in a plain error.(Al-Ahzab:36)
My priority is Allah,so I have to be steadfast,I won't turned back,my nafs would say,you will regret etc. but then I won't regret and I dont want to regret because He is always there,I have to be good so that He will love me..All I want and long for is His Approval,only His Gaze matters most to me,no need to concern about others because I live my life all this while for Him so no need to bother others,hehe
Don't get me wrong,and I'm pretty sure my fellow readers would understand things that I wanted to deliver=).Till then,live your life to the fullest,for Him,Allah The Almighty=)
These few days rasa malas sangat,but then mak dah pesan lepas Subuh tuh bacalah surah Yasin so that Allah bagi kekuatan extra sikit untuk laksanakan kewajipan..huhu,insya-Allah mak=)
Due to the state of being a slow learner,I had to work up on my brain lots more than others..
Saya nak pulang jumpa Dia dengan kemuliaan,so saya kena berjihad tuntut ilmu sungguh2=)
"Sesungguhnya Allah mengangkat darjat orang beriman antara kamu dan orang yang menuntut ilmu itu dengan beberapa darjat" (Al-Mujadilah:11)
Tapi,huhu selalu gak lambat pick up=)
Then,kene double checque takut2 because of committing maksiat ilmu terhijab.Boleh jadi jugak tuh.But then,it might be Allah saja je nak uji kita,nak tengok sejauhmana pembuktian cinta kita pada Dia..So,kena buktikan ni,huhu
