(Sebenarnya saya taknak tulis di blog, tapi hati berat untuk share. Yang baik jadikan pengajaran yang buruk jadikan sempadan ya. Oh lagu di atas tiada kaitanpun; favourite halwa telinga)
Hati tak tenang usai exam..mungkin lantaran menyelak kembali lembaran2 silam;diapi2kan lagi oleh bisikan nafsu dan syaitan..
Mathurat dan ayat hafalan mengubat hati yang gundah..
Harapnya mereka yang saya sayang sihat2 dan bahagia jiwanya..seperti yang Allah sebut; hati yang sejahtera (qalbun saleem)
Pagi ni sekali lagi hati saya sedih, di mana silapnya? Saya rasa bersemangat nak study tapi jiwa terasa sesak..
Quran tafsir dicapai, lantas ayat2 cinta menghamburkan kekuatan super hebat:
(9:72) Allah has promised the believers-men and women,-Gardens under which rivers flow to dwell therein forever, and beautiful mansions in Gardens of 'Adn (Eden Paradise). But the greatest bliss is the Good Pleasure of Allah. That is supreme success.
Lembaran demi lembaran diselak, seolah2 Dia sedang berkata2:
(10:107) And if Allah touches you with harm, there is none who can remove it but He, and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can repel His Favour which He causes it to reach whomsoever of His slaves He wills. And He is the Oft-Forgiving, the Most Merciful
Dalam teresak2, Dia yang sangat Sweet itu berkata lagi dengan lembut seakan2 memujuk:
(13:21) And those who join that which Allah has commanded to be joined (i.e. they are good to their relatives and do not sever the bond of kinship), and fear their Lord, and dread the terrible reckoning (i.e. abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds which Allah has forbidden and perform all kinds of good deeds which Allah has ordained)
(13:22) And those who remain patient, seeking their Lord's Countenance, perform As-Salat (Iqamat-as-salat), and spend out of that which We have bestowed on them, secretly and openly, and repel evil with good, for such there is a good end.
(13:23) 'Adn (Eden) Paradise (everlasting Gardens), which they shall enter and (also) those who acted righteously from among their fathers, and their wives, and their offspring. And angels shall enter to them from every gate (saying):
(13:24) "Salamun 'Alaikum (peace upon you) for you persevered in patience! Excellent indeed is the final home!"
Dan hujanpun semakin lebat turun..Tapi dalam basah lencun tu, saya mengangguk faham dan mengucapkan 'ya, faham' sambil menangis seperti budak2
Saya tahu dan mungkin faham sikit, belum faqih lagi tapi saya juga tahu saya ni rebellious =D Nak fahampun kena bersabarkan?
Dan seorang sahabat pernah cakap bila saya tanya, macam mana dia je boleh dapat result macam ni? (Masa tu tengah buat experiment & saya punyalah kelam-kabut nak siapkan lab tanpa fahamkan betul2 the right concept and method to conduct the lab =( )
Dan dia menjawab, perseverance! (Sampai sekarang saya ingat! Itupun tak faham lagi hakikat perseverance tu..Rasanya kena masuk kelas bahasa ni, makna perseverancepun tak faham lagi!
Rupanya, saya masih tak faham hakikat sabar dan tabah dalam berusaha memaknakan hidup saya sendiri terutamanya dalam ertikata seorang Muslim =s
Owh, translation verses tu dari Quran tafsir saya freshly bought from Madinah tercinta! Subhanallah, I love English language as it provides accurate meanings; variety of vocabulary being used here. Masya-Allah!
Agak sedih jugak sebenarnya bila teringat Quran tafsir lama, dibawa lari monyet semasa mendaki Jabal Tsur di Mekah tapi Allah beri yang lebih baik after that! Alhamdulillah, indeed best thing in disguise, baiknya Allah!
p/s: Exam, infopack, exam, infopack..
