Sunday, January 4, 2009

Bukan Itu Tujuan (1)

Alhamdulillah,today is a very bright day plus a better day indeed as it seems to be much better than the day before(as for myself and I hope others too=D).May Allah bless us as we pursue our life,insya-Allah=)
From the words of our beloved prophet(pbuh):
“Celakalah orang yang hari ini lebih buruk dari hari semalamnya,hari esok lebih buruk dari hari sebelumnya”
I used to scold myself like this, ‘celakanya aku’ each time I feel my day has becoming more and more terrible and horrible.And Asma’ usually will advise me regarding this and one day I told her about this hadith,so I memang celaka when my days are no better than before with reference to this hadith=(.And Asma’ tersenyum..
As the day pass by,I learnt that many of my beloved friends suffered a broken heart.I am very aware of this as they are my most precious friends.To be honest,I do feel being in love is an experience that everybody want to,and long ago I felt that to marry someone that you love is the happiness which everyone’s looking for.
But,after more than 2 decades being His servant but still x ade changes pada status quo,I realize that sesungguhnya solatku,ibadahku,hidupku dan matiku hanya untuk-Mu,ya Allah.The true happiness is being in Allah’s love,devotion of our life only to Allah The Almighty.These are the words that we as Muslims used to recite during performing our prayer 5 times a day (Iftitah prayer).If all of us really understand what meaning this prayer brought,we will at this instance asking His Forgiveness for not being an obedient servant yet He still gives us a healthy body and wealthy life.
At the time I read ‘Ketika Cinta Bertasbih’ written by Habiburrahman El Shirazy,I felt that I was really amazed by the way the writer preached about Islam as he explained a bit about certain feqah method in his book yet it is easy to understand his explanation,thanks to his simple+understandable writing.In this book also I learnt about the existence of Al-Hikam,a book written by scholars of Islam from Iskandaria,Syeikh Ibn Atho’illah.
This scholars said,which motivates me a lot ‘cinta sejati itu menyembuhkan tidak menyakitkan’.That is only the gist extracted.He said‘ tidak ada yang dapat mengusir syahwat atau kecintaan pada kesenangan duniawi selain rasa takut kepada Allah yang menggetarkan hati atau rasa rindu kepada Allah yang membuat hati merana!’
From my understanding,anyone who has fallen in love,most of them will feel that.This means when there’s is an affection,nafs(syahwat) will come in handy.Astaghfirullah..And he said that this feeling can’t be discarded or thrown out from your heart unless you possess two things,first rasa cinta kepada Allah yang very extraordinary which makes your heart throbbing till that only He conquers your heart,no one can take His place and only then other distractions will on its own be discarded.Second,rasa rindu kepada Allah yang amat dahsyat till your heart suffered kerana rasa rindu.Logically,bila kita rindu sgt2 kepada Dia sampai merana,kita takkan mungkin rindu pada selain Dia sebab kita terlalu busy rindukan Dia sampai tak ada masa nak rindu yang lain..
But as we are His servant akhir zaman,having no faith at par with umat terdahulu we are having an illness called miskin cinta Allah,as a result we are being invaded by other illnesses,kaya cinta and rindu pada yang lain,yang belum halal untuk kita ingati plus unqualified to be loved for the time being.
Sahabat,love is not everything but the fact is when we lost our love it is like we lost everything in this world.Betapa sakitnya hati,jiwa and all of the sort.Tapi sahabat,bear in mind that mencintai makhluk memungkinkan kita untuk kehilangannya and when you have them,there is a risk of bidding farewell to them,that is only if you have the chance to bid=).Hanya cinta kepada Allah saja yang tidak.
When you have made confession to someone whom you love there’s a possibility either to be rejected or the other way around.But,when it comes to Allah there’s no such thing like being rejected.It is more worthwhile to be in love with Him rather than being in love with someone whom you yourself doesn’t even know if He is your Mr. Right in the future.Cinta Allahlah yang paling membahagiakan dan menyembuhkan kerana tiada sesiapa yang boleh merampas dan merebutnya.Tidak salah untuk memiliki rasa cinta but then the way we reflect it is always not on the right track.Sahabat,pencinta sejati ialah mereka yang mencintai kerana Allah dan Rasul-Nya,yang mendidik diri untuk bermujahadah in dealing with this matter,yang mengekang sedaya-upaya agar syariat-Nya terjaga.Memang payah,senang cakap and so on tapi when there’s a will there’s a way.Islam tidak pernah memaksa when it comes to beragama(not forcing non-Muslims to convert to Islam) but once you are a Muslim,you must by hook or by crook obey the rules and regulations of Islam.
Dear friends,and buat diriku jua,carilah cinta yang lebih baik dan suci berbanding cinta makhluk-Nya yang not permanent,temperory and not long-lasting.Carilah Dia yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang yang always by your side through thick and thin.Dialah Pemberi Kekuatan,pohonlah kepada-Nya kekuatan untuk terus berjihad menjadi seorang Muslim yang much better from before.Bangunlah di tengah malam memohon kekuatan jiwa by performing Tahajjud prayer and solat sunat yang lain.Juga,beristikharahlah dalam apa jua urusan kerana ia digalakkan oleh junjungan besar(s.a.w).
Sahabat(buat diriku jua),memang kita kena berusaha untuk mengubah nasib kita.Jodoh itu di tgn-Nya.Have faith in Him dear fren.Buat muslimah serta diriku y lemah ini,mari kita berusaha menjadi muslimah yang solehah kerana perempuan2 yang baik itu untuk lelaki2 yang baik (An-Nur:26).Yakinlah pada ayat2-Nya.Cintailah Allah dahulu kerana selepas itu barulah kamu berupaya untuk mencintai makhluk-Nya seiring dengan syariat-Nya.Janji-Nya tidak pernah menghampakan,yakinlah!

Life in MICET..

Upon Syazana’s request(one of my best friend),I will be talking about my newly-registered university.
Made up my mind on pursuing in Chem Eng,I’m now a MICET’s graduate which is one of MARA’s subsidiary,universities.MICET stands for Malaysian Institute of Chemical and Bioengineering Technology,located about 20 km from Malacca(more or less).It is actually nearer to Tampin though situated in Malacca.
When I first came here,we were sort of into sight-seeing as we got stonewalled,got confused as too many informants yet to no avail.Too many cooks spoil the broth=( but at the very least they were willing to help,thanks=).Then,I called unikl headquarters asking them for MICET.After less than an hour out of our mind searching =D,we arrive there safe and sound.
Having through the registration procedures,I worked my way to the hostel on feet.Exercising in the early 9 am.My newly classmates greeted my mother on the path beside A block showing us where to get the key for my room.I thanked them profusely even though I wasn’t really showing how much I really appreciate their help=P,taken aback of how nice of them to us I mean to a complete new student kind of lost in her first day of registration=).Alhamdulillah..
Almost forgot,I made a new friend,Anis Zafirah during registration.So friendly which made me amazed,really.Plus so nice,=D.Happen to be my roommates.Very talkative,kind of extrovert I guess which total up to 2 things similar with me=p.Alhamdulillah,we get along very well till now and I hope it will last forever,amiin.
At first,there are 6 girls and 8 boys with 8 of them were FAT(foundation) students plus 3 KMS and 3 KMB.Anis and I used to regard ourselves as ex-cream of the cream as we failed to go abroad this January or February 2009=(..nevertheless,what goes around comes around..we learn to appreciate things and strive harder ,be stronger so that this second chances won’t slip away(have to get 50% of an overall average in the first sitting in unikl),otherwise our names will slip down from MARA’s list of sending-student-overseas.

At the beginning,lectures were almost zero in number as lecturers got a lot of things to attend to which make us really scared even not to death=D,as other friends of mine in BMI and IPROM have already started their lessons.As a matter of fact,we are kind of relax gak about classes,really in excited state when lectures being cancelled,got pretty sad if there is a class or extra classes at night compensating the one being cancelled earlier.Yeah,I admit that I become lazy+slow+sleepy at night sometimes but I need to push myself,having the thought of failing to pass with flying colours hits me like being in an aeroplane crashed thousands feet off the ground.My heart did a somersault,as the thought struck in me.I keep on telling myself,whatever happen,I will make it.Not to forget,have to let Him takes care of the rest after all the effort done=)
Sitting at the very front chairs,there won’t be any shielding effect as I have the feeling of absorbing all the valuable words,terms and so on from the very mouth of our lecturers.Very often,laughter grown up in me as the lecturers are soo funny yet lovely and wonderful especially our Phys Chem’s lecturer-Dr. Zainab.Her motherly face plus her naughty yet expressive funny gestures always click open some parts inside me which is the easily tickled+moved+touched part..I usually ending up in her class being some kind of vibrator,both shoulders shaking uncontrollable as I restrain myself not to let the laughters bursting out,not to mention others too..The funniest part is she asked me one day why am I soo happy today(during her lectures)?Some voice inside me blurted out-you brightens my day Dr.Really=)My classmates are very full of humour and we are always laughing,every minutes I think.Very happy and full of laughter=)Alhamdulillah..
Our classmates now are 21 in number.Plus Ija,Illiyyin and GMI’s guys which are Zarul,Ashraf,Fakhri,Ainul and Farid.Ija and Illiyyin are now my roommates besides Anis.We get along very well so far=).Alhamdulillah..So,here we are 21 students struggle very hard to get to Sheffield after failing the first attempt.Owh,Farid is a 15-point holder yet he wants to pursue here as they said he isn’t confident of going to German,the language and all of the sort.At the very least we can ask him for help or reference besides lecturers regarding our subjects=)
Last but not least,I hope we will make it and won’t disappoint MARA again and our parents plus our lecturers too.For the sake of Islam,I need to succeed this time!Insya-Allah,we’ll be working very hard on making this a reality=)