Ignorance is Not a Bliss

Hari ni saya kehilangan dua orang penting dalam hidup saya.. Seakan2 separuh dari support system saya tiada. Sejujurnya, mungkin tiada langsung. Tapi,

Saya kena menghargai mereka yang berada di sekeliling saya. Illiyyin, Atikah dan adik2 yang mengharapkan support dari saya.

'Kita merancang, Allah juga merancang dan Allah sebaik baik perancang. Semoga Allah memberikan kesabaran kpd kita.'

'Takpelah. Kita tak tau ini rahmat atau musibah. Bersangka baik sahaja dengan Allah, mudah mudahan ada kebaikannya.'

Jazakumullahu khairan untuk kedua2 nasihat ini.

Saya terlupa

Untuk bersangka baik dengan Allah

Saya juga terlupa Allah adalah sebaik2 Perancang. Walaupun saya juga merancang, dalam masa yang sama Allah juga merancang sesuatu buat saya. Dan sudah tentunya yang terbaik di pandangan-Nya buat agama saya dunia dan akhirat insya-Allah

Support system sangat penting. Rupa-rupanya saya kuat kerana saya ada Allah yang Maha Luas kasih-sayangNya

Saya sangat kuat kerana saya ada kawan2 yang setia ketika di SK Serom 5

Saya sangat tabah dan tidak gentar kerana saya ada kawan2 yang setia dan memahami ketika di SM Sains Kota Tinggi

Dan sekarang, saya perlu kuat walaupun support system saya goyah

Kerana saya perlu kuat untuk orang2 di sekeliling saya

Dan sudah tentu semata2 kerana Allah

Renew

Some of the quotes of the year:

" Excellent person is motivated by the desire to achieve not to beat others"

"Apabila kamu telah berazam (bertekad dan berusaha) maka bertawakallah kepada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah sukakan golongan yang bertawakal" (Ali Imran :159)

Moga Allah permudahkan urusan!

Back to My Feet

Alhamdulillah, coming back to my beloved Malaysia after my-two-years-of-not-going-back in Sheffield, UK.

The moment the plane did touch the soil of Malaysia (in which KLIA in particular), I was already teary and overwhelmed as Allah had blessed the journey and here I am safely arrived, in tact back in Malaysia! ;D

And it was an exciting experience; travelling alone from Sheffield- Manchester Airport-Dubai-KLIA; I will never ever forget this kind of experience!

When I stepped my feet out from the Arrival Gate, I saw my family as they excitedly waved their hands to notify me 'Hey, we were here', I bow my head to kiss my mother's hands before her cheeks and she got tears in her eyes. I said to her in a calm tone; 'Janganlah nangis mak' as I hugged her and then I moved to my father and my along repeating the same manner as I did with my mother :)

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I wanted to have a CDL (Competent Driving License) but I need to take KPP's class and got LDL and PDL first. And gladly to say, I have had my L license few days ago =D Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah! And now, I am working on getting my P license then voila to the world of driving with competent license and get a job for a better myself in the future if Allah wills it :)

Driving classes were so full of lessons! I met new people with various background and different upbringings; made me wonder and thought of a lotTT of things.

Lesson 1

On the very first day towards CDL, I need to register myself first in the counter. I unintentionally overheard the conversation between these guys.

Kakak on the counter: Adik, you have to pay RM 10 for the KPP's book.

Guy A: Adik, did u bring money?

Guy B: Abang, I havent received my salary yet. (Belum abang, saya belum dapat gaji lagi)

Upon hearing this, I got teary and so touched; I caught his figure at one glance; yes he did come from a so-so family I must say. Neither did I come from a wealthy family and I wasn't shamed about this. I guessed he was just completed his SPM and was up for motorcycle's licence. I learnt a lot from this guy and then I continued my steps to the allocated class.

In the class, I've seen many faces and surprisingly they have surprisingly like-able attitudes. I met new friends irrespective of our age's difference, and I pondered about a lot of things when I was back in Sheffield, doing my second and third academical year.

During KPP's class which consumed 5 hours time, tears kept welled in my eyes but I managed to hold them back without running down my cheeks =D I really hoped I did learnt the lessons well!

Indeed, I agreed with the saying, ' Best thing in disguise'. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. I will not repeat the same mistakes insya-Allah, my new resolution for the next semester of my studying.

Alina, let's planning for a better future ok! I love you! And again all in all, thank you so much Allah for the Guidance and for Your Ears! Please do bless my not-yet-chosen path!

Di sebalik semua kekurangan dan kehinaan diri, aku ingin katakan:

Aku ingin belajar keranamu Allah!

Mari Bermula Sekali Lagi

Sedang menaip CV, sambil membalas post di dinding facebook. Tiba-tiba tersentak dan subhanallah! Sangat-sangatlah benar! Terbaca post seseorang di News Feed kira2 30 minit yang lalu:

Dan apabila Allah menghendakimu sesuatu perkara, Dia akan menyediakan jiwamu untuk itu (Ibnu Jauzi)

Alhamdulillah faham. Tapi, semuanya berpunca dari kesilapan diri juga. Tidak boleh menyerahkan 100% pada ketiadaan rezeki.

Source

Lessons learnt, not lessons lost (the chemical engineer, issue 838, April 2011)

Jadi, izinkan aku bersandar pada-Mu ye!

Mari bermula sekali lagi? :)

Tahan Lisanmu Itu

Pagi semalam, riuh-rendah di dapur dengan suara kami dua- beradik walaupun sebenarnya anak-anak kepada En. Mohd Adeni dan Pn. Solimah adalah berjumlah 5 orang :)

Dan semalam adik lelaki bongsu selepas Subuh, meneruskan pelayarannya di alam mimpi. Seperti biasa kakak-kakak yang kononnya prihatin membebel dari dapur. Berasaplah telinga si adik tadi..

Tapi, bila muhasabah kembali, hendak menegur kena berhikmah :)

Source

Walaupun adik bongsu mungkin hanya di Tingkatan 3, tapi mereka yang lebih tua perlu juga beradab dalam menegur. Membebel tidak tentu arahpun hanya membazir air liur dan memekakkan telinga mereka yang mendengarnya.

Dan kalaulah diri diletakkan ditempat adik, mahu mengamuk sebab tiada respect langsung! Walaupun kakak sendiri.

Ingatlah adikpun ada hati dan perasaan. Ada rasa malu dan ada ego tersendiri. Adik ataupun kakak, muda mahupun tua, kita adalah sama; manusia yang Allah jadikan punya hati dan perasaan.

Jadi, ingin menyentuh hati-hati family tersayangpun kena ada marhalah Dakwah Fardhiahnya.

Bersesuaian dengan firman Allah SWT., “Maka disebabkan rahmat Allah lah kamu berlaku lemah lembut terhadap mereka. Sekiranya kamu bersikap keras lagi berhati kasar, tentulah mereka menjauhkan diri dari sekelilingmu.” (QS. Ali-Imran : 159).

Al-Quran telah memberikan penyelesaian. Indahkan Islam ;)

Hakikat Bahagia

Bila kaya jadi insan pemurah

Bila berkuasa amanah

Bila berjaya tidak alpa

Bila sihat tidak lupakan Tuhan

Sungguh, bukankah Tuhan telah berfirman ketahuilah dengan mengingati Allah jiwakan menjadi tenang

Seindah Biasa

Saat hilang arah tujuan..

Kau tahu ke mana berjalan :)

Terima kasih ya Allah! Please, never get tired of educating (tarbiyyah) me!

Manusia

(Sebenarnya saya taknak tulis di blog, tapi hati berat untuk share. Yang baik jadikan pengajaran yang buruk jadikan sempadan ya. Oh lagu di atas tiada kaitanpun; favourite halwa telinga)

Hati tak tenang usai exam..mungkin lantaran menyelak kembali lembaran2 silam;diapi2kan lagi oleh bisikan nafsu dan syaitan..

Mathurat dan ayat hafalan mengubat hati yang gundah..

Harapnya mereka yang saya sayang sihat2 dan bahagia jiwanya..seperti yang Allah sebut; hati yang sejahtera (qalbun saleem)

Pagi ni sekali lagi hati saya sedih, di mana silapnya? Saya rasa bersemangat nak study tapi jiwa terasa sesak..

Quran tafsir dicapai, lantas ayat2 cinta menghamburkan kekuatan super hebat:

(9:72) Allah has promised the believers-men and women,-Gardens under which rivers flow to dwell therein forever, and beautiful mansions in Gardens of 'Adn (Eden Paradise). But the greatest bliss is the Good Pleasure of Allah. That is supreme success.

Lembaran demi lembaran diselak, seolah2 Dia sedang berkata2:

(10:107) And if Allah touches you with harm, there is none who can remove it but He, and if He intends any good for you, there is none who can repel His Favour which He causes it to reach whomsoever of His slaves He wills. And He is the Oft-Forgiving, the Most Merciful

Dalam teresak2, Dia yang sangat Sweet itu berkata lagi dengan lembut seakan2 memujuk:

(13:21) And those who join that which Allah has commanded to be joined (i.e. they are good to their relatives and do not sever the bond of kinship), and fear their Lord, and dread the terrible reckoning (i.e. abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds which Allah has forbidden and perform all kinds of good deeds which Allah has ordained)

(13:22) And those who remain patient, seeking their Lord's Countenance, perform As-Salat (Iqamat-as-salat), and spend out of that which We have bestowed on them, secretly and openly, and repel evil with good, for such there is a good end.

(13:23) 'Adn (Eden) Paradise (everlasting Gardens), which they shall enter and (also) those who acted righteously from among their fathers, and their wives, and their offspring. And angels shall enter to them from every gate (saying):

(13:24) "Salamun 'Alaikum (peace upon you) for you persevered in patience! Excellent indeed is the final home!"

Dan hujanpun semakin lebat turun..Tapi dalam basah lencun tu, saya mengangguk faham dan mengucapkan 'ya, faham' sambil menangis seperti budak2

Saya tahu dan mungkin faham sikit, belum faqih lagi tapi saya juga tahu saya ni rebellious =D Nak fahampun kena bersabarkan?

Dan seorang sahabat pernah cakap bila saya tanya, macam mana dia je boleh dapat result macam ni? (Masa tu tengah buat experiment & saya punyalah kelam-kabut nak siapkan lab tanpa fahamkan betul2 the right concept and method to conduct the lab =( )

Dan dia menjawab, perseverance! (Sampai sekarang saya ingat! Itupun tak faham lagi hakikat perseverance tu..Rasanya kena masuk kelas bahasa ni, makna perseverancepun tak faham lagi!

Rupanya, saya masih tak faham hakikat sabar dan tabah dalam berusaha memaknakan hidup saya sendiri terutamanya dalam ertikata seorang Muslim =s

Owh, translation verses tu dari Quran tafsir saya freshly bought from Madinah tercinta! Subhanallah, I love English language as it provides accurate meanings; variety of vocabulary being used here. Masya-Allah!

Agak sedih jugak sebenarnya bila teringat Quran tafsir lama, dibawa lari monyet semasa mendaki Jabal Tsur di Mekah tapi Allah beri yang lebih baik after that! Alhamdulillah, indeed best thing in disguise, baiknya Allah!

p/s: Exam, infopack, exam, infopack..